I woke up today feeling like I used to feel coming home at 7am from a club after a big night out. It was a big night out. Bright lights, music blaring, trying to push through the crowd, stern security, wild dancing. Lag B’Omer in Meron. My first time. During the day I realised that the ‘after effects’ I was going through are at the same time so similar and so completely opposite of those pre-teshuva party days.
When you’re in a club partying there’s a sense of unity and togetherness as you dance to the same beats and the same lights, everyone being super nice. In the morning the next day you can look back and it feels a little…empty. Was there purpose? No. Was there unity? No. Who were those people? No idea!
On Lag B’Omer at Meron there’s a sense of unity and togetherness as you dance to the same beats and the same lights, everyone being super nice. In the morning the next day you can look back and it feels…real, meaningful, inspirational, pure. Was there purpose? Yes. Was there real unity? Yes! Who were those people? Our brothers and sisters.
When you become more observant you often hear people say that anything ‘unpure’ in the world can be experienced in a ‘pure’ holy way. It’s the exact experience but channeled totally through holiness. I never really understood it until today.
The same, and opposite at the same time. That is what a klippa experience is. It’s dressed the same, but it never feels the same long term because it doesn’t have the innate purity. We know what’s real because it’s eternal. It has a soul, a unifying force beyond the time and place. But it also has a specific time and place. It’s not random. It’s rooted in our very history and being.
What a privledge it was to be in Meron with about a million other Jews in all forms, shapes, hats, dress, ages, and colour. It was the largest mosh-pit I’ve ever seen, and the greatest simcha, because it was real. May we merit to always sift through what’s around us and inside of us to find what is real, what is eternal, and have the strength to be true to it.